Quote Of The Day

"Throw me to the wolves and I will return leading the pack"

                                                            -Unkown

Just keep swimming!

  Today was supposed to be my dad's third round of chemo, but it was cancelled because he needs a hearing test. Now you might be asking yourself why would they cancel chemo if he just needs a hearing test? Well, chemo can affect many other parts of your body including hearing, so they have to check, well everything. Maybe it's a good thing his chemo was rescheduled he hasn't really bounced back from his last round of it. Watching my dad go through chemo every few weeks is difficult. He sleeps a lot, he can't keep food down, he can't sleep, and he's always in pain. It's painful not being able to help other than to do your best to keep your loved one as comfortable as possible. Some days are good and others not so good at all, everyday is a gamble and an entirely new unknown. Hopefully his next chemo will go fine and then we're on step closer to my dad being healthy once again. But in the mean time and in the famous words of Dory from Finding Nemo "Just keep swimming"

                                                                

                                                Isamar

P.S

If you haven't seen Finding Nemo, WHAT ARE YOU WAITING FOR? It's a great movie and Dory is adorable and so funny! So go, go watch it. You won't regret it!

(Image from Disney.com)

Cancer Awareness Ribbon Colors

Here is a chart of  cancer awareness ribbon colors. I currently have a white ribbon pin on my purse in support of my dad. 

Quote Of The Day

"A strong person is not the one who doesn't cry. A strong person is the one who cries and sheds tears for a moment, then gets up and fights again."
                                    -Unknown

A long journey ahead

When someone is sick what do we do? We usually wish for them to get well soon, we baby them, we even make them chicken soup. But, what do we do when our parents are sick? I don't mean the flu, or a cold, I mean serious sick, like cancer. My dad was diagnosed with late stage 2 cancer on April 5th, 2015. I remember when my mom sat me down and told me that my dad had cancer, my heart dropped and I began to cry, hearing that someone you love is really sick is beyond heartbreaking. My dad has gone through so many test and procedures, surgeries, collapsed lungs, and constant pain. It's frustrating, painful, agonizing, and at times it feels completely hopeless. As we grow up our parents grow older and unfortunately the topic of when our parents are no longer around comes up more often. I find myself praying that the day never comes and my parents tell me more often that its just a part of life. And lately it really is a part of our lives because as much as we hope and do the best we can to make sure my dad is healthy, that fear is always present and always terrifying.  Everyday is unknown. We never know if my dad is going to have a good day or a really bad day. We never know if the chemo is going to make him really sick or if he's going to be lucky and this round isn't going or affect him so much. We never know if at 2 am we're going to have to rush to the hospital because he has a bad fever and can't breathe. Our lives now revolve around medicine schedules, appointments, chemo rounds, and whether my dad can keep food down or not. It's not easy waking up and realizing it's not a nightmare, it's reality. It's hard seeing my dad so sick, because as much as I don't want to admit it, he is really sick. And even though he makes me mad and still  treats me like a baby even though I'll be 25 next month he's my dad, and I'm so thankful that he's still here with us because the simple thought of one day having to part with him is the worst pain I've ever felt. Today is a good day for my dad he woke up with some energy and that alone is great. His next chemo is on the 24th and hopefully he won't get as sick as the last one made him. I'm sorry if this was all over the place and chaotic, but that's how I feel lately and I felt like writing this exactly as I was thinking it was the best way for me to get my feelings across. I'm trying my best to keep up with my blog and just my normal routine but these past months have not been easy. But I'm trying and that's all I can do right now. Thank you for baring with me and taking time to read the craziness that's going on in my life. And to everyone that is battling cancer or any other illness I hope that you kick your sickness to the curb and come out healthier and stronger than ever.  Please take care of yourselves! Do what you can to live longer and most importantly healthier lives.

                                                 Isamar