Quote Of The Day

"A strong person is not the one who doesn't cry. A strong person is the one who cries and sheds tears for a moment, then gets up and fights again."
                                    -Unknown

A long journey ahead

When someone is sick what do we do? We usually wish for them to get well soon, we baby them, we even make them chicken soup. But, what do we do when our parents are sick? I don't mean the flu, or a cold, I mean serious sick, like cancer. My dad was diagnosed with late stage 2 cancer on April 5th, 2015. I remember when my mom sat me down and told me that my dad had cancer, my heart dropped and I began to cry, hearing that someone you love is really sick is beyond heartbreaking. My dad has gone through so many test and procedures, surgeries, collapsed lungs, and constant pain. It's frustrating, painful, agonizing, and at times it feels completely hopeless. As we grow up our parents grow older and unfortunately the topic of when our parents are no longer around comes up more often. I find myself praying that the day never comes and my parents tell me more often that its just a part of life. And lately it really is a part of our lives because as much as we hope and do the best we can to make sure my dad is healthy, that fear is always present and always terrifying.  Everyday is unknown. We never know if my dad is going to have a good day or a really bad day. We never know if the chemo is going to make him really sick or if he's going to be lucky and this round isn't going or affect him so much. We never know if at 2 am we're going to have to rush to the hospital because he has a bad fever and can't breathe. Our lives now revolve around medicine schedules, appointments, chemo rounds, and whether my dad can keep food down or not. It's not easy waking up and realizing it's not a nightmare, it's reality. It's hard seeing my dad so sick, because as much as I don't want to admit it, he is really sick. And even though he makes me mad and still  treats me like a baby even though I'll be 25 next month he's my dad, and I'm so thankful that he's still here with us because the simple thought of one day having to part with him is the worst pain I've ever felt. Today is a good day for my dad he woke up with some energy and that alone is great. His next chemo is on the 24th and hopefully he won't get as sick as the last one made him. I'm sorry if this was all over the place and chaotic, but that's how I feel lately and I felt like writing this exactly as I was thinking it was the best way for me to get my feelings across. I'm trying my best to keep up with my blog and just my normal routine but these past months have not been easy. But I'm trying and that's all I can do right now. Thank you for baring with me and taking time to read the craziness that's going on in my life. And to everyone that is battling cancer or any other illness I hope that you kick your sickness to the curb and come out healthier and stronger than ever.  Please take care of yourselves! Do what you can to live longer and most importantly healthier lives.

                                                 Isamar    

   

Quote Of The Day

"If nothing ever changed, there'd be no butterflies."
 
                                          -Unknown

When will we change?

  As the world changes and people become more open minded, it oddly seems that they also become more close minded. As the new generation continues to grow, as parents, guardians, and teachers, we should instill basic decent morals, and values in our children. Like being kind to others even when others aren't. Being tolerant and respectful of others choices and beliefs. Lending a helping hand when someone is in need. Always remember your manners and never make someone feel unwanted. Stand up for what you believe in but always be respectful in doing so. But most importantly remember that everyone is human. We all make mistakes, but we're all searching for the same thing. We all want to be accepted for who we are. We want to find where we belong, we want to be happy. But most of all, we want to be loved. And it's in our hands to raise today's children into tomorrow's kind, caring, honest, and brave true versions of themselves.

  I hope the world that my nieces and nephews will someday inherit will be better then it is today. I hope someday they won't be judged for what they believe in, but rather they be judged for the content of their character. I hope someday they can freely express themselves without the fear of being discriminated. I hope someday they can live their lives as happy and authentically as they choose to. I hope someday my hope will become not only their reality, but the world's reality. I hope someday we can all change for the better. 

                                                                      Isamar

Quote Of The Day

"Courage isn't having the strength to go, it is going on when you don't have strength."

                                                 -Napoleon Bonaparte

Quote Of The Day

"Traveling. It leaves you speechless, then turns you into a storyteller."

                -Ibn Battuta

Where to next?

Do you ever get the urge to pack up and travel? Just you and a backpack with the essentials, and a hankering for adventure? I do. I'm always dreaming of foreign soil, of different sunsets and sunrises. I want to visit and submerge myself in different cultures and heritages. I want to learn traditions and customs other than my own. I want to see the world! I want to meet people from all walks of life, I want to experience different ways of life. I honestly think traveling is the best classroom. Think of all the benefits! You have the opportunity to learn foreign languages from actual people. You can learn how to cook local cuisine, you can learn their history you could even find a place where you want to lay down your roots. There are so many great benefits from traveling, it's truly an experience that enriches our lives. I have a long list of places I want to visit and experience. I want to step foot in Paris, and England. Greece and the Parthenon. I want to see Rome and the Collisium. I want to go to Brazil and be a part of Carnival, I want to see Germany, Potugal, Spain, India, I can go on for day's! But most of all I want to live in Scotland. There's something about Scotland's history and beautiful land that calls my name. If I had the financial resources I would travel to thousands of differet parts of the world. But Scotland is what my heart calls out for. We should all travel, there's so many different places to see and so many people to meet. One day I'll see the world, but for now I'll continue to dream of them. Where would you like to visit?

                     Isamar